I’m a catastrophe
Speaking in hyperbole
And worst of all
I want the world to listen to me
Because I can’t be
The only one who can see
I can’t be the only one
With this life sentence
Who has decided they are worthy
Of punishment
Of penance
I’m not the only one
Taking the easy way out
Because I can’t hurt others
But I can hurt myself
Someone once said to me
You wouldn’t recognize it if you saw peace
And I wouldn’t
I know passion
I know impatience
I know rage
And I know the love
That comes with a blank page
But I can’t equate
Living
With serenity
So here is another calamity
A chemical imbalance
A fallacy
Another extreme
That turns into an emergency
I beg for respite
But I will never take it
It will always be the height of ecstasy
Or the depths of despair for me
With bouts of terror in between
And sadly or perhaps not
I doubt I would change it
If I could
Don’t mistake this for unhappiness
Recognize
That it is the comfort
Of a damaged child
Who will never grow up