A Curious Thing


It’s still dark at 4 a.m.

A storm fights with the night

Outside

Inside

Three of my most beloved pets

Slumber by my side

On my lap

Anywhere to be near me

And I fixate

Like a word on the tip of

Your tongue

About the loneliest times of my life

Not sorrowfully

Just thoughtful

Just seeing them play on the wall

Seeing them lead me astray

Like will o wisps in the night

And wondering why I survived

What strength it took

I did not have

What will it took

When I ran away

The place I got my name

The time I threw it away

And how dearly I craved

To have it back

My downfalls and my victories

All play like actors for me

The past is a curious thing

When you do not dwell

But remember it’s wonder

And live in time as it flows

Not drowning

But breathing deep

I’ll Never Tell


How do we keep our secrets?

Within our skin?

With teeth that bite down on our lips?

How do we keep our secrets?

Nailed to a cross?

A rumour in the darkness?

A shadow of a memory long since buried?

How do we keep our secrets?

With armor and chains?

With weapons and sharp tongues?

How do we keep our secrets?

In sleep?

In shame?

In guilt?

How do we keep our secrets?

We don’t.

They are written on us

Like a thousand clever words

We hide behind

But they show

In the light and in the evening

Of our lives

Take your secrets to the grave

They will be revealed anyway

Secrets are not meant to be kept

They are meant to be

Erased


Sweeping lines

Drawn in the sand

Now erased

A nomad in the desert

Of my heart

High on the endless time

Until I found comfort

In the vast nothingness

And then…

I left

I walked away

Into a world

That I am now

Only born into

I never thought

My broken wing could fly

I never thought

I could find the key

That unlocked these

Jaded eyes

A place unreachable

Attained

Love unthinkable

Found

A cycle broken

A smile

Now sincere

My fingers shaking

No longer grasping at straws

Wishing to kiss death with cold lips

Sweeping lines

Now erased

Miscreant Device


A charcoal sketch

Of my fondness for the past

A harsh ink scribble

Of my reality

Free of nostalgia

The future

Shape shifting

Watercolors

A ticking clock has always been

My antagonistic friend

Time is a war

Yet I am obsessed

In love with that

Miscreant device

That tangled straight line

So now

The sublime now

A snap shot

And what a wonderous thing

A secret smile

In the dark is