There are steps we take
Closer
Further away
And I didn’t truly see the stars
Till the night was cold
And I was tattered
In a far away place
With no one to grab my arm
And steer me from danger
You were a whisper
And I thought
As I walked that I wished
I could hear you
My twin flame
Who only suspected my secrets
I am all secrets now
There is no 3 am playground
For me to quietly hint
There is no unfeeling town
Where our feet smashed against
The pavement
There is only the dizzying stars
And moments that will lead me
To be
Patchwork deception
And fumbling fabrication
And as I try to tear away
This duplicitous costume
I wish that even in your cold judgment
I could tell you the truth
I wish I could make this mouth
Form the words at all
Because it hurts
In the pit of my stomach
Missing you
And carrying this shame