It’s weighing massive in my mind
This bitter medicine
I have seen my own descent
I know my body is broken
On rock bottom
Hidden from sight
Out of mind
Unwilling to part
With this remorse
While I hold on
Knuckles white and aching
I watch myself
Immersed
Only to return to breathing
Why does every change
Have to feel like the end of everything?
I’m aching for the light thrown by
The suns in my life
I’m starving
Thin
Like the thread
That I am clinging to
Real life offers no reprieve
There is no end to these beats
Of emotion
That course through my veins
And all along
It’s more of the same
So just give me a place to fall
Where I am not so broken
Give me time
All I can ask for is the gift of minutes
I take a deep breath
This bitter medicine
Is not venom
It is the key
And I have been behind locked doors
For too long