Recently I got the chance to stay
With an old friend
His house is a bizarre urban wonderland
With an actual tortoise
I got to pet
I highly suggest
If you get the chance
To have that experience
My friend Casey is clever
His wife, Keli, is like beautiful fire
So smart
She burns through words the way I do
We had many delightful
Verbal sparring matches
That no one won
I was happy there
But the best moment at this
Unlikely utopia
Came gently
Subtley
Casey and I joked as I asked him
If he remembered what I considered
Our first conversation
He said hello to me and used my name
I looked at him with confusion
And with a tone dripping with frustration
Sounding far too much like a curmudgeon
For his young age
He said
I have been sitting behind you
In English class for six months
Oh sweetie
I said
My weak apology
And from then on
Through the years
Although we lost touch
My affection for
The oddly sweet curmudgeon
Never faded
There was a day when I was nervous
My mind going too fast
Too many things
Too many thoughts
Just too much
Casey gave me a glass of water
And I smiled
My mind did not improve
The day went on
My mind snarling anarchy
Until Casey simply asked
Wanna play legos?
Usually I would have refused
I would have dwelled inside myself
That day I said yes
And like small children
We dumped legos on the floor
Laid on our bellies with our ankles up behind us
And Casey built cool things
I, having no mechanical skills
Made things that immediately fell
Apart
We laughed quietly
We talked quietly
I started to find lego people
And give them back stories
Then I dismembered them
We laughed even more
As I built them a graveyard
Propeller head man was our favorite
I don’t know how long we did this
It felt like hours
Hours of being a kid
Hours of having quiet, short
Conversations
That meant more than we knew
And when it was done
The swirling vortex in my head
Had quieted
The anarchy was harmless
I was ready for that day
Because Casey gave me the
Best gift
So few people can do it
Make me feel small
Make me feel quiet
Make me
If even for a moment
Let go
And I needed it so desperately
That stormy day
I never said thank you
I didn’t know how
But I write this saying
That sometimes the best present
Is a complex curmudgeon
Too intelligent
Constantly striving for positivity
That wants to play with legos