Sleight of Hand

I am swallowing this secret

While never telling it.

I’m shooting up time

Into my veins

And it sparkles like gold

Circle back

And swallow again

Gulping these hours down

The most pathetic countdown

Here’s the subtext

I was born and bound

To be next

Here’s the broken promise

And my pulse

Thrumming too fast

Wishes and wellness

Mutually exclusive

An exercise in

Existence and yet….

I can’t claim to understand

Anymore

All I know

Is I have to let it go

Complex

And meaningless

I know this is just

My sleight of hand