A dead man walking
Expecting at any moment
For the noose to be pulled tight
Enduring this kind laughter
Reviewing these petulant accolades
And as the house cats play.
Slowly and dreamlike
I think of how simple it would be
To live a life
Where I am not experimenting
With what is right
Where to lead
Where to go
Who to be
If I could smash this mirror
Of artifice
If I could take a sharp little blade
And carve away
All the shards
To reach
The blood and bone beneath
To strip away
The imagined time and space
Too many things
Too many people in one place
Now my sore mouth speaks
Too many thinly veiled words
And as I tick off on fingers
The ways I control worlds
I am beginning to realize
Maybe I’m not ready to
Only live one life