My skin is cool
I wrap myself in a blanket
There is a certain kindness
To finding warmth
It’s with a specific sadness
That I recall
How little
You knew that feeling
All apologies
Could never
Transcribe upon
My mind
That you ever sought
Warmth for warmth’s sake
It was always a cynical glance
With those cunning eyes
Knowing that you could drain
Every drop
Every ounce
And ruthlessly
Give nothing back
It’s haunting
The way I sleep at night
Grasping at straws
Of memories
Where you almost touched
The sunlight
I will find
What I find
In retrospection
And the comfort
Of knowing myself
But my skin is cool
I wrap myself in a blanket
And I know that I
Find more reprieve
More kindness
Than you ever knew
In my own arms