Onus

I was wrong

I can say that now

The words tumble from my mouth
Tangled and snarled
Broken by this weakening voice

I was wrong to look where I did
Curiosity killed the cat
Satisfaction kept it coming back

I was a little incorrect
In my pursuit of nothing
I was a bit confused
When I said
Define me
Because I can’t define myself

Brilliantly wrong with every blind turn I made
Shining like a beacon
Of what not to do

And as I waltz
With mistakes I almost made

I know

My expectations never failed me
I learned to walk by running
My sacrifices were mine to make
And as this all takes place

The galaxy spins on

And I move the stars

I am the snow

Snow on the first day of the new year
Beautiful ice
Gorgeous frozen fate
Is this a sign?

Faith has never been my forte
But I see it in the frost
That loss
Is purely painful
Supremely awful
But still they tell me to go on
Two lost sisters
A year so bitter
And still…

I am the ice
I am the snow
Quiet and comforting

Send me bees in the spring
And snow in the winter
Please make me believe
Logic does nothing for this agony

Weeping skies
That lead to revelation
No determination on
Whether or not
Judgment comes

I’ll sleep soundly in the snow
And dream of you
For you are only dreams now