More Than I Expected

The light is soft and fading
As my heart
On tip toes
Remains light

The death of you was
Like drowning
As you struggled
I could not breathe

There was not a moment
Even in the inevitability
Where I could gasp
And let the cool air
Burn my lungs

Tears sting my eyes
But at the same time
I can almost breathe again

Because I miss you
And something about that
For me
Speaks of love
Unyielding

And the knowledge
That if I can perhaps
If I can be pleased
If not happy

Maybe
My time is worth
More
Than I expected

And my smile becomes
As valuable to me
As it was to you