Where is my world?
It is not here amongst these lonely walls
It is amongst the laughter of my so-called friends
Or is it?
Is it in the softness of a kiss?
The concentrated anger of a fist?
Where am I?
I do not recognize the black halls.
I cannot make out shapes in this dim light.
All I want is a magical somewhere,
Where I am but a solitary puzzle piece.
Not just another cool white star
Scattered in the night.
I have found so few to hold,
Yet to care is to lose control.
I want to wrap myself in the downy warmth of my beating heart
And fall into the little loopholes of my soul.
I want to grasp the handholds of severity
That inhabit my mind.
Forever never seemed so real
As when my dreams recalled the wonder
I have never felt so whole
As when I took the time to ponder
My open hands
And reach forth into the depths of my blood